Wipeout

Staying on the topic of time...

Our church went Christmas Carolling last night. I was able to go see some folks I haven't seen in a very long time (something that I admit is completely my own fault and should NOT be!) One very young-at-heart lady who rode along with me talked about finding it difficult to believe that some of our senior members at church were actually as old as they are - in years that is. Then she realized that if she were only honest with herself about her own age, then it should not be so difficult to comprehend others' ages. If Mr and Mrs were her Junior High advisors, then they had to have been at least 20 years older than herself, so that should make them around.....

Time. It carries us along like a tidal wave and half the time we don't even realize it. Here we are in the midst of this racing rush and we are so focused on...well, something...that we don't even notice that...

• our children have grown into adulthood
• those we once depended upon to help carry the load cannot carry as much any longer
• those we love feel abandoned because life has changed their routines for them and left them behind while ours continue and even become more complicated
• we have changed, maybe in small ways that really don't matter to anyone but ourselves, and sometimes in very big ways that make a difference to many

The list could go on and on, I supposed. Maybe I have just been made aware of my own age and how much time has passed without my being aware and the time that I possibly could have ahead of me. I think, though, that I need to try to become more aware of the wave that I am riding, take a look at the life that is riding along with me. I need to try to keep the ones that are pushed ahead and the ones that get pushed backward in my sight and within the sound of my voice and the ones that get pulled under, I need to try to hold their hand for as long as I can. I need to learn how to swim, much better than I do now - for my own sake and for those around me, so I can help them when needed and so I don't drag them down.

"Where has the time gone?...

...It wasn't that long ago when we had 4 year-olds." Rob's question caused memories to flood my mind and heart. It doesn't seem that long ago. Not at all. When you look back on it, time seems to have flown by.

This song was sung at our wedding. I liked it then, but now that I am older, the words mean more, so much more. And so does time.


If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that Id like to do
Is to save every day
Till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
Id save every day like a treasure and then,
Again, I would spend them with you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
Ive looked around enough to know
That youre the one I want to go
Through time with

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you

But there never seems to be enough time
To do the things you want to do
Once you find them
Ive looked around enough to know
That youre the one I want to go
Through time with

Just breathe...

"You can be anything you want to be!"
"Be all you can be!"
"Just be yourself."

Sometimes it is hard to figure out what it means to "be." Those are the times I have to tell myself to "just breathe."

Home is...

"I guess it's that I know I can relax here. I can get sick if I need to."

Pleeeeeeaaaaaase....

When 80% of a sermon is composed of other people's stories, there is really no "meat" - it is all "leftovers."

Let the little ones come

B told me of seeing Jewish children rush in during the service and more or less take over - one yelling "Abba!" others climbing on the furniture. I wondered at the time how First Church would react to such a scene. Yesterday, we had 5 boys ranging from 8 months to, oh, maybe 12 or 13 at church. They didn't rush in and do any climbing, but Ethan and Zeb sang, Jonas gave commentary to the service and our 2 visiting young men decided to help the ushers take up the offering. It was great!

Also from yesterday....

Dava's message was on sacrifice. She basically spoke of the usual things - time, talents and money. Listening to her, however, my mind kept going back to a discussion in Sunday School. It was said that one thing that seperates Christianity from other faith practices is God's grace to us and the fact that we are to reflect that grace to others. Another statement was how today, the word "christian" brought about animosity, confusion and pain with many people. A survey conducted several years ago, showed that when asked what they thought of when they heard the word "christian," practically no one questioned said "grace."

Dava mentioned in her sermon that it is questionable whether anything any of us do in the name of service for God could be called "sacrifice." I agree. The more I sat there and listened, the more I realized that we do give of our time, talents and money...but how often do we reflect the grace that God has so lovingly given us?

Time, talents and money...same 'ole same 'ole. The same ole same 'ole just isn't good enough.

7 years ago...

...I began a "Three Year Reading Program." I got my certificate today. I am glad I finished, but, I have no clearer idea of what I am supposed to do than when I started - 7 years ago.

"Don't worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will worry about itself."

Keep reminding me Eric.

Sad

She interrupts others' conversations with topics out of nowhere.
She brings up a totally different topic when you are speaking to her as if she was never really listening to you in the first place.

It seems like at times, she is in another world.

Then I watch her when she is not a part of what is going on - when she is not a major part of what is going on - and I see that she wants desperately to be a part of this world. She wants to be someone's whole world.

How sad to watch someone who is so sad.

From the mouth of a 4 year-old

Eric and Alec visited me last night. Eric said they weren't Trick or Treating, but Mamaw B said I would treat them anyway. He was right. I did have treats for them. He turned it around though - he treated me. Eric began telling me what he had done in Bible Study and quoted the scriptures he had learned, one of them from Matthew 6:34.

"Do not worry about tomorrow, tomorrow will worry about itself."

It is good to ask questions, to think about things, to work towards something. It is good to consider our actions and strive to seek to glorify God in each and everything we do. It is not good, however, to worry so much that our lives are consumed by the "what if's," the "why's," and the "how's?" - to worry so much about the questions that we forget to do what it is we are supposed to be doing right now.

The disciples had a hard time seeing the "big picture." It seems they kept missing the point of Jesus' teachings time and time again. They had a particular vision of what they wanted him to be and do and when he showed them something different, they were lost. We too keep missing the "big picture." We have a vision in mind of where we should be and what we should be doing and when we don't see that vision coming to life, we get lost. Perhaps we need to look back at what Jesus taught and what Eric reminded me of last night:

"Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don't get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes." The Message

What is it we are supposed to be doing? I believe we are to be praying for God's help to discern what it is we are to do and the strength to do it (because, it may not be within the realm of our own vision!). I believe we are to take it step by step - one thing at a time - God's time. There are things in our lives right now that are preparing us for work we will do later. We can't "get worked up."

Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.

Manicures...

... lunch with the sisters, chocolate cake, books by women preachers from sisters who are not too sure, candles, lotions for pampering, e-mails from young women I admire, e-cards and IPods. All in all, not a shabby birthday.

And still...

For 40 years I shared this day with my Daddy. For 40 years, we blew out candles together, took turns opening gifts and sat grinning sheepishly while family sang "Happy Birthday." 40 years. Not enough.

Happy Birthday, Daddy. I miss you.

The safest place on earth...

Larry Crabb wrote a book titled, "The Safest Place on Earth." I have used parts of the book several times for adult and youth presentations. When I speak of the book and it's subject, the church, I often tell a story of a young man who found the church to be just that - the safest place on earth for him.

The young man grew up in "the church," but as he became older, became further and futher distanced from the place, the people and the God he had known as a boy. The pastor of his home church came into the sanctuary one morning to find the young man asleep under one of the pews. Recognizing him, the pastor woke him and asked why he was there. The young man replied that he was in deep trouble, he was desperate, and that church was the only place he knew where he had ever been completely safe.

I thought of Crabb's book today and this story because of something that happened in my church. As I was leaving worship, I heard someone say that a wallet was missing from one of the choir members' purse. Then another. Then another. I stopped and checked my own purse - no wallet. Altogether 5 ladies' wallets had been stolen from purses kept in the bottom of the closet of the choir room during worship. Drivers' licenses, insurance cards, cash, credit cards and in a couple of instances, car keys. All gone.

Many years ago, I had had some video tapes taken from my car during a Wednesday night choir practice. I was absolutely furious. I ranted and raved for many days - if not aloud, in my head and heart. This time is different. I am concerned because the person has my home address and a key to my husband's car. I am slightly agrivated that I will have to go stand in line at the DMV for probably what will be a long time to get a new license. The Driver's License can be replaced, the debit card cancelled, but a car is a different matter. I say I am concerned and that is it. I have been inconvenienced, but I am not furious as before. I don't wish harm to come to the person who brought an act of violence into my church, invaded my privacy and stole my property - like I did before. I realize that we are all safe and all that was taken can be replaced.

We are all safe.

I am not sure all of the other ladies agree with me.

Optimism of children

Eric sits at the table eating lunch...peanut butter crackers and apple slices. On his plate remain 3 crackers and several apple slices. He decides to show me how he has mastered math at his young age.

"Tawa, if I eat one cracker, that leaves two. Then, if I eat one cracker, that leaves one. Then, if I eat one cracker, that leaves....apple!"

I pray that my favorite oldest great nephew will always see the glass as being half full!!!

Oldies

Seeing old friends and catching up on children, grandchildren, parents.
Listening to oldies while driving surrounded by the beauty of autumn.

Teach your children well...

Violence within...violence without

One school system is teaching the children how to "fight back" should they see someone with a gun in their school. It seems they have a former British military man instructing children how to respond in emergency situations that includes "throwing anything they can get their hands on at the person and charging directly at them."

One opinion of the new training suggested that the methods being taught were those taught to adult military personnel and not applicable to children.

"I would be concerned if this were in my child's school," said another.

I am concerned that this is being taught in any school.

Random

Together - Conversations on being the church...
It's open-ended. There is no goal. The conversation is what it is all about...the important part.

What is the church? The body of Christ...but are we acting like the body of Christ? If not, can we actually say that the church...today's church...is that body?

What is supposed to be and what actually is. Do they ever become one?

Over heard at Camp Bethel: "You can thank Lefty Hoal for that building there." Actually, Lefty didn't build it, but it was built in his memory by people whose lives were altered for the better by Lefty's support, advertisements and hard work at Camp Bethel. So, I guess the man was right. We can thank Lefty Hoal...for the building and so much more.

Young adults, grieving over the death of their 'Nana.'
Beautiful baby boy falling asleep in my arms.

My girls in my house again.
Family coming to dinner.

What is supposed to be and what actually is. Yes, with the grace of God, they do sometimes become one.

Love feast

The blocks should be turned this way...
That's way too many tables...
No we have never had pitchers of water...
I don't cut meat...
I don't think there is enough...
Well, we only have enough ice...
Don't put cold water in those buckets this time...
She has already gotten what she needed...
Well, they are right there...
That has got to be covered...
Here's my jars, be sure they get filled...

We are here by invitation...
Lord, is it I...
Will you let me be your servant...
Jesus cared about feet...
We...eat many meals...none...like the meal we are about to eat together here...
All who are in love and community with your brothers and sisters, who do truly and earnestly repent of your sins, who humbly put your trust in Christ and desire his help that you may lead a holy life, draw near...
Take, break, eat and live...
Take drink and live...
Blessed be the tie that binds...

First Church
Love feast
Life

Peaceful living

I sat this morning with my sister discussing how our upbringing has taught us about what we do and do not want to be like. With regret we talk about those we love and how they have not been able to use their experience and knowledge in loving ways rather than preaching and nagging…how our relationships with them have always been full of conflict. We talk about how some people are remembered for their loving, peaceful lives and others for their anger and the strife they bring to everyone around them. Then, I read this in a daily e-mail…


The wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, willing to yield, full of mercy and good fruits, without a trace of partiality or hypocrisy. And a harvest of righteousness is sown in peace for those who make peace.
- James 3:17-18

Beautiful is the moment in which we understand that we are no more than an instrument of God; we live only as long as God wants us to live; we can do only as much as God makes us able to; we are only as intelligent as God would have us be.
- Archbishop Oscar Romero, from his last homily, March 23, 1980


God speaks and we must listen - or else we too will be remembered not for the peace of God shown through our lives, but for the lack thereof. Someone once told me that I was not called to be effective, but faithful. I pray for all of us who have a difficult time with this concept.

Holy Ground

A friend told me today that he and his wife visited Camp Bethel this past Saturday. After all these years, it was good, he said, to be back on those grounds. He told his wife, "this is indeed holy ground."

It is wonderful that even though our physical world can change so much, the holiness of God remains the same.

Divinity revealed

I sat working on a prayer shawl while also watching a dvd of Dena Pence Frantz's theological study at NOAC 2006. At a certain part of the presentation, Frantz speaks of icons and their place in the history of the church. She says that the group will look at "how the artistic drive to portray the divine presence of God is a spiritual quest." Frantz explains how the artists had to contend with the questions "how is the divine revealed in physical earthly things?" and how can we depict something we may see and yet something that is beyond our capacity to see?

As I sat working on that shawl, I related somewhat to those Bizentine artists. My desire to create the shawl is somewhat of a spiritual quest. I want to bring the presence of God to another through the warmth and comfort of the shawl; to bring the knowledge that they are cared for and loved; to bring to them the hope and peace that is God. I also have found that the presence of God is with me as I create the shawls. I pray that my heart would be right with God before and while I am working; find that I feel a sense of peace within my own being; find my heart filled with compassion and love for the person to whom the shawl may go - whether I know them or not.

My prayer is that these physical earthly bits of yarn would reveal some of the divine to both the receiver and myself and bring about a desire to seek that which is beyond our capacity to see.

Unwritten

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with eyes wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

NATASHA BEDINGFIELD

What?

Choir director - "I don't know what to call that part of the music."
Tenor - "How about "the beginning?"

Sometimes the most obvious things are so far beyond our understanding.

The walk

On this morning 26 years ago, I was waking up to my wedding day. My parent's house was to be filled with family from Kentucky, Ohio and Tennessee. First Church would be filled with friends, family and people I didn't know.

"Love isn't just walking into someone's life...it is walking in the same direction."

On this day 26 years ago, I began a walk with someone I love very much. Sometimes, our steps are not equal in length or speed, but God always seems to bring us back together.

I love you Rob.

aaah

clean vac, clean teeth, clean windows

I like clean.

Making it stick

"We discussed Paul writing to the Corinthians about things that were items of concern at that time and were asked if we were Paul writing to First Church instead of the Corinthians, what would we write about?"

"Did you say, "Get off your butts and do something?"

"No, I said, 'Keep going. You're not done yet."

Not quite as specific as I wanted to be, but then, I'm not sure the people in attendance could handle what I really wanted to say. Paul (Alwine, not biblical) said he felt that Paul (biblical) had to consider who he was writing to. He said that conversation was not just saying stuff, but it was saying things in a way that would stick with the listener. He felt that Paul (biblical) had to consider how people would take what he said and so he had to say it in a way that they would actually understand what he meant and not misunderstand his words because of their background...where they came from. He said he had to do the same thing when he wrote sermons.

Re one of my long-time teachers/mentors/friends:
Conversation. Not just talking, but making it stick.
Sermons. Not just talking, but making it stick.

Leah

Twenty years ago today, I waddled around my kitchen in my bathrobe trying to fix supper for Rob and Dana Beth. I grew more and more uncomfortable until I knew I was going into labor with our second child. As I lay on the bed, Rob started making arrangements for his parents to meet us at the hospital to take care of Dana Beth. She asked him, "What's the matter with Mommy?" "She's going to have the baby, " he responded. "She can't!" Dana Beth exclaimed! "She's got to go to the hospital first!"

And go we did to experience the birth of a beautiful little girl with a head full of wild dark hair.

Today, we remember and celebrate that birth and the beautiful young woman with long dark hair that is my Leah.

Happy birthday Lele. I love you.

Little boys

I miss having children in my home. Eric and Alec were here yesterday and we had a great time.

ice cream and neighbors

short committee meetings where nothing is talked about except the matter at hand, a yard full of little kids, hispanic gentlemen who share my love for coke floats also known as black cows, neighbors who pronounce "Mary" "Murrie" just like me, seeing that when it comes to carrying on a conversation with a one-year old, I've still got it

Rain, rain...

sitting on the porch watching the rain come down...its a good thing

knowing that some are being evacuated from their homes by it...not

Keeping on

"A good woman does not live in fear of the future because of her past. Instead, she understands that her life experiences are merely lessons, meant to bring her closer to self knowledge and unconditional self love. Girl Smile.....YOU KNOW YOU HAVE IT GOING ON! .....So Keep ON Keeping On."

Somehow, friends seem to know what you need to hear and when you need to hear it.

Montezuma

traveling through the misty mountains, picking up on the intensity of emotion in David's voice as he speaks God's word, hugs from Jonas, shy smiles from Zeb, being with Carol Lena, tomato sandwiches, homemade salsa

Sunday was a good day.

Blinders

Sometimes it is hard to see a thing when you are right in the middle of it. Several times lately, I have seen beams of sunlight bursting through the clouds - very distinct rays of light making their way through the sky. Until yesterday. It was a sunny day as I drove home and I looked up into the sky to see those beams, but there were none. I didn't understand why - after all, it was a bright sunny day! Then, I realized that I felt the warmth of the sun on my body through the car window. I was surrounded by the sunshine! I was right smack dab in the middle of it and didn't recognize it! It made me realize something.

All this time, I had been relating those rays of light to God's presence and grace. Everytime I saw them, it was as if God was saying, "Karen, I am right here."

Just because God's presence and grace are not majestically visible to me does not mean they are not there. If I but look and pay attention, I will find that I am always right smack dab in the middle of them.

My formica bead

My past...

The table sat under a window in the small kitchen at the rear of the house. It had a formica top. Doors from the kitchen opened into the living room and Mother and Daddy's bedroom which I supposed was actually meant to be a dining room. In that living room, Daddy rocked me to sleep and carried me to bed. Mother let me take a nap in her bed with my blanket decorated with chenille stiches. Daddy talked me out of running away from home in my bedroom at the back of the house. I heard the gunshot from the trailer where I stayed sometimes while Mother ran errands. My puppy, Skippy, was hit and killed by teenage boy who lived up the street. All of these memories and more come to mind when I look at my formica bead. They all combine to make me who I am now.

The Shell

Places where I feel close to God…

“…it’s just you, the sand, sun and ocean” says a friend of time spent at the beach. I would clarify that by adding...my awareness of God in the fragments of previous life that make up the sand, the sense of healing as the heat of the sun warms my bones and the powerful yet soothing ocean tides that are able to toss me about at their will then support me as I float aimlessly.

Here I come

Sea, sand, sun....

UGH!

So angry I could not even cry. Now THAT's angry!

Misc NYC quotes

“We are the people we’ve been waiting for. The world is waiting so come through the door. There’s lots of room here on the dancing floor. There’s no delaying anymore.” - Ken Medema

"We have great border control here." - John Keller, NYC 2006 Dean

"God almighty, maybe what I need is to give myself away. Small things, great love, that’s how the mountains move.” – Ken Medema

“Why don’t we do what he says? I don’t think he’s going to shut up until we do!” - Ted & Lee

"You being yourself matters. It’s what keeps the community from being lost.” – Glenn Mitchell

“You’ve got to clear up the confusion about what it means to be a Christian.” - Jim Wallis

“Jesus will give you power to change this world,” David Radcliff

“You might be Brethren if......you think one of the Ten Commandments is, you know the words to ‘Move in Our Midst’ whether you want to or not" - Frank Ramirez

“I don’t know how much time I have to become something. None of us do.” - Andy Murray

“God’s got you covered,” Dawn Ottoni Wilhelm

"...and this part signifies when my life goes wacky..." Me

"Is David Radcliff part black?" Emily

"This was life-changing." Katie

"Walk with me." Darron

NYC

I spent last week in Colorado with over 3000 young people. It is amazing how old a person can feel and at the same time, be energized. I do wish that more members of our congregations knew what actually happens at our denomination's National Youth Conference. I wonder, though, if they did, would it make any difference in the way they do things? Would they not permit their youth to participate? I wonder...

Unity

"You all are always together." Families - individuals uniting as one.
"I do." Marriages - individuals uniting as one.

The individual is still there - it makes the union what it is.

Wishing....

I guess my feet know where they want me to go
Walking on a country road

My girls

Talking to my girls.

"All I need is an orphan and a widow!"

"I remember them, but I don't know them now." Jonas Racey Miller about his friends at First Church.

Today brought ....
preaching in a small country church
leading hymns accapella
lunch with a beautiful little girl with a beautiful smile (who also was wearing BIG GIRL PANTS and had to show them to EVERYONE much to her grandmother's chagrin!)
watching rainbow trout in the spring with Jonas
playing drums on the benches with Zeb
having Katie Hannah pose with us for a family picture

oh - and great food!

Natural Bridge seafood buffet

"These are NOT eatin' britches!" - Pastor Dava of her jeans after eating piles and piles of crab legs.

Cracked pots

"I needed this."
"I wasn't going to come today, but I'm glad I did."
"Some messages push people out to the corners of the sanctuary. This one pulled them in."
"God is with you."
"I knew it was going to be good when you stood up with so much confidence."

Evidently, God does use "cracked pots."

Memories & forgiveness

Memories and forgiveness. How to have both - that is my question.

I miss my Daddy

having my daughter quoted in Sunday School, playing handbell pieces that I enjoy, Maddy Tuck, Sunday afternoon naps, Leah cooking dinner, celebrating and remembering Father's Day.

Birthdays!

For Saturday:

Quiet Saturday mornings, the Rke Farmer's Market, family birthday dinners, new stories from Lynsey

Solitude, picnics and Leah

Having the office to myself - I get a lot done!, picnic dinner on Mill Mountain, "I'm spending the night at the betting horse place"

Meese Tracks is my favorite

getting stuff done, finding what I am looking for, feeling satisfied when eating little, moose tracks ice cream, agreeing with columnists in the Roanoke Times, yard work, swirly evening clouds over Blue Ridge mountains seen from my front porch swing

May my example be my lesson

Lord, grant me the wisdom and compassion to know when to stop complaining about my own life and inquire about another's.

Misc

chicken salad, naps, looking through photo albums, knowing that my girls are safe and sound

GRITS

Surprisingly - K & W's cheese grits, finding out how to make chocolate eclair be good without set ting overnight , Greek Gypsy friends, front porch swinging with friends, having both of my girls here, "If we believe, then, why are we afraid?"

Having June in my life provided me with a great many gifts. One in particular that I will always appreciate, is that she stood back and allowed me to add the cinnamon to the First Church applebutter.

Life

For Monday...

fresh spring tomatoes, having a house filled with aromas of great food when people come in hungry, Whitney and Amanda, the way a funeral home visitation can turn into a great reunion for friends and family - full of memories, jokes, hugs and laughter, looking at old pictures of old friends, sitting in my living room with Rob, B and Leah - just chatting, Sheila, Debbie, late night/early morning sharing with my friends

It's there, I know it is

being a part of a community, remembering, lunch with friends

Trying to find positive things in each day is a good thing, I know. I just have to keep on trying.

Good bye June

breakfast at Earnie's with The Rob, fresh veggies from the market, knowing that someone I love is no longer sad or hurting, Whitney's fast-paced conversations and Amanda's rolling eyes...and now...Betty Heptinstall's peanut butter pie

Friday

Yogurt, granola and raspberries, possibly Curves, feeding my friends, knowledge

music and God's creation

The Trio, GORP, rainbows, sunshine streaming through the clouds

Peanut butter, accents and music

Too tired Wednesday to post, so...for Wednesday:

peanut butter breakfast bars, blt's, teaching people how to say "Pikeville" the correct way, prayer shawls, great bell choir and chancel choir practices, computers and projectors actually working, "Hey K!"

Quiet, breathing and possibilities

quiet days at the office, walking up 6 flights of stairs without passing out, finishing my TRIM application, sitting on my back porch

Purple Cow

I never saw a purple cow
I hope I never see one
But I can tell you this right now:
I'd rather see than be one.

Ah yes, I wrote "The Purple Cow"
I'm sorry now I wrote it
But I can tell you Anyhow
I'll kill you ifyou quote it!

Ogden Nash

hugs, dreams and purple cows

hugs from people who care, grins that come from deep within, imagining Lefty singing, "I never saw a purple cow..." to June when she wore a purple dress, Rob transplanting wild daisies into my back yard for me

Laughter, tears and chocolate

Dava's funny stories, inspirational statements, graduating youth, Sunday afternoon naps, people I respect saying I did good, late, long, leisurly dinners with friends, sharing a chocolate tallcake

Mountain Music

fresh pineapple; Dolly Parton, Emmylou Harris and Linda Ronstadt singing ballads; putting images to music; Tina Lowe, "I love you enough to get up and hug you Karen, I'm just too lazy."; stare downs with tom turkeys; crushed oreos and cream cheese dipped in white chocolate

Friends, good food and once again, those Blue Ridge Mountains

2 hour lunches with a dear friend, Diana's cole slaw, fresh pineapple, picnics at the Peaks of Otter, mountain reflections in the lake, driving above the clouds, rocking chairs on porches, graceful does and leggy fawns

Rain, daisies and mountains

windows open while it is raining, being told my body fat percentage isn't so bad after all, left-over burnt hotdogs, daisies outside my window, hazy Blue Ridge Mountains

Guide my feet

ceiling fans, opportunities to learn, doulahs, African American Spirituals, the Gospel Sway and citified white choirs who try to do it

Guide my feet, while I run this race
Guide my feet, while I run this race
Guide my feet, while I run this race
Cause I don't want to run this race in vain.

Thanks be to God

To take a lead from B, I have decided to try to make note of the positive things from each...well as close as I can...day. I have found myself bombarded daily with negatives and I know that if I don't take time to really look for, appreciate and give thanks for the positives, I will, sooner or later, find myself slipping down to a place I have no desire to go.

Even though it is a day late...for Tuesday, May 30:

clients who say "Thank you" and mean it, quiet office time, sweet tea, June's outstretched hand and smile of recognition, being able to be there for a friend, working with Rob on a project and getting it done, sitting and talking with Leah

Whoa!!!

Note to self: new tri-focals, shoes with heels and pre-existing nausea do not a good combo make.

If only...

life could be this simple.

My little Great-nephew Henry.

I think one of the reasons we like to watch babies sleep is because there seems to be nothing but peace in their little faces. We look on with awe at the slumber of little ones and wish. If only....

HIGH FLIGHT

Oh, I have slipped the surly bonds of earth

And danced the skies on laughter-silver wings;

Sunward I've climbed, and joined the tumbling mirth

Of sun-split clouds - and done a hundred things

You have not dreamed of - wheeled and soared and swung

High in the sunlit silence; hov'ring there,

I've chased the shouting wind along, and flung

My eager craft through footless halls of air.

I've topped the wind-swept heights with easy grace

Where never lark, or eagle flew -

And, while with silent lifting mind I've trod

The high untrespassed sancity of space,

Put out my hand and touched the face of God.

--John Gillespie Magee, Jr., 3 Sept., 1941

There’s a song in every silence, seeking word and melody.
There’s a dawn in every darkness, bringing hope to you and me.
From the past will come the future; what it holds a mystery,
Unrevealed until its season, something God alone can see.

Natalie Sleeth

Sometimes I wish I were a cloud. Then I could just let all the tears fall like rain and no one would consider it unusual or wrong.

Church History

Church History class - trying to cram thousands of years into a few hundred pages and 12 hours of class time. This is Christian Growth Institute. I find myself both appalled and enthralled at the same time when reading of the Fathers, the writers, the Popes, the monks. I wonder at the vague possibility that I can even come close to understanding the scriptures and the teachings of Jesus when those who were so much closer, at least in time, struggled so to get it right.

I read of political powers who controlled the church and the religious leaders who allowed them to. I read of religious leaders who purchased their positions, who encouraged the slaughter of innocents and so-called heretics. Then comes Erasmus.

"Christ desires his philosophy to be spread as widely as possible. He died for all and he wants to be known by all...If Christ did not prevent them from hearing his words, I will not prevent them from reading his books."

"Is it impossible to be united to the Trinity without being capable of explaining the distinction between the Father and the Son or between the Spirit and the other two persons? What matters, that to which we have to apply all our energies, is to purge our soul of passions: envy, hatred, pride, greed, concupiscense. Unless I have a pure heart, I shall never see God. Unless I forgive my brother, God will not forgive me...We shall never be damned for not knowing whether the principle of the Holy Spirit is single or double; but we shall not escape damnation unless we try to possess the fruits of the Spirit...Nowadays appeal is made to an ecumenical council to decide on many problems; but we would do much better to postpone them until the day when we see God face to face...By force and by fear we are trying to make people believe things that they do not believe, to make them love what they do not love, and to compel them to understand what they do not understand. Constraint cannot bring people together in sincerity; and Christ only accepts the voluntary gift of our souls."

I really, really like this guy.